I have been trying to fight this cold for days and days, but I think I have surrendered to it finally. I just feel awful today! I think I was convinced that I would just barely be sick. Today I am embracing my sickness! Sweat pants, slipper socks, glasses and all. My 2 littles who are home today are sick too, so we are just hanging out being lazy.
Last night we had a big holiday party to go to. We were all supposed to bring a bottle of wine and either a "hearty appetizer" or a dessert. I really didn't want to just go overboard because it was a buffet line. I did pretty well. I did get lots of veggies, a few shrimp with a little cocktail sauce, a spinach-y baked thing that had breadcrumbs in it, a tiny spoon of some sour cream dip and 3 cubes of bread to dip it in, and some fruit. There was a little plate of olives on the table. I probably had a dozen olives throughout the evening. And about as many cups of water, too!
There were a lot of little appetizers that just didn't look too appetizing to me....mini taco's, TONS of meatballs. I did put a couple things on my plate that I took a bite of and decided they didn't deserve to be finished. And I skipped the dessert table entirely. There were Giarhadelli (sp?) chocolate squares at each place at the tables we were seated at. Mine was minty. I broke it into 4 pieces and ate one little square then another. I stopped at 2. yay me! Later I did look at the dessert table. The only thing that really looked good was a big ol' chocolate cake. But it was something I would enjoy at home in a binge with some diet Coke to wash it down. Not something I would enjoy nearly as much in public. Hello...I'm Noelle...and I have some eating disorders...
Anyway. I still went home feeling bloated. I don't know if it was all the water or all the olives or just the fact that I had on control top nylons that I NEVER wear. (BTW, recently I had to buy nylons. It was the first time in over a decade that I bought size B and not queen size.)
I know too often during the holidays we use each and every celebration to just go crazy and eat whatever is in sight. But we have another party tomorrow night and some friends are taking us to dinner on Sunday night. I can't afford (weight wise) to enjoy each of those occaisions like there is not another meal in my future. So I will try to pick and choose wisely the next week. Last night felt like a success. I didn't track. I didn't feel deprived. But I didn't eat with abandon either.
Oh, and I don't really like wine so I didn't have any of that either. Last week at my meeting, my leader shared a stat that said we up our liquid calorie intake three times during the holidays what with all the alcohol and extra trips to Starbucks while we are out shopping. YUCK
OK, going to try to get a quick nap before the bus drops kids off in half an hour. Send me some good health vibes, OK?