the flu, mama's turn

soooo not fun. when your kids throw up, you try to be sympathetic, but want them to just....well, not have the flu. When my little tiny guy was sick, I wanted him better. For all of our sakes.

Then it hit me. Tuesday night I didn't sleep much. I had gone to bed early, but I was awake again before midnight and just felt achy and yucky. I finally fell asleep around 4, then I was up again around 7 to call in sick to work. I was puking by 7:15. It was so awful. I haven't been that sick since I was a teenager I think. I won't give you all the yucky details...but fat panties make good disposable undies when you need such a thing...

I was sick all day. Until after 8 I was still throwing up. That was Wednesday. Thursday was better. I was done with all the puking...the other held on a little longer. But I was just so wiped out. I did finally get out of bed last night to watch a little TV with the fam. This morning D finally had to go back to work so I had to up and at 'em with the kiddos. Not a good morning. A drained and dehydrated mama is not a patient mama. And children who have hardly seen their mama in a couple of days need a patient mama. Or at least a somewhat attentive one.

I do feel better today. I am still really weak and run down. It's hard to eat much since I still get a little tummy ache when I eat too much. And I am still feeling like I could drink and drink and drink and never be satisfied.

One good thing...I may have broken my extra large diet coke first thing in the morning EVERY morning habit. I would literally get out of bed, get dressed quick, throw on some flip flops and head to the gas station...or McD's when they were on sale all summer. I would have my diet coke fix very first thing in the morning. Then I would usually have another one of those mid-day as well. That plus all my water. Yep, I peed like every 10 minutes!

But the caffeine addiction is so hard to break for me. It is so ingrained in me. But after going without for a few days, maybe I can kick it altogether? That is sooooo insanely scary to say. There was a time in my life (when we were newlyweds) that I didn't usually even keep diet coke in our house. Now? ummm, different story. But I know it's not a healthy habit.

Now I'm rambling. Maybe it's a blood sugar thing. Maybe I can convince my dh to fix one more dinner? So far the kids have had pizza and scrambled eggs for dinner. I think tonight is burgers. Thank goodness for hubbies that like to cook!