Today I was back up 2 pounds. I didn't put it on my sidebar or adjust my ticker. I don't want to.
Maybe it's not so bad. After all, yesterday I froze about 4 bushels of corn. So I was standing in the kitchen all day. I had 3 huge diet Cokes, not much water and some herbal iced tea. I didn't eat dinner till after 9 o'clock, either. So maybe that's all it is?!
When I weighed in with my meeting leader, I told her I just feel "done". I don't want to do this anymore. Maybe I should just sit here for a while and call this goal?
She wasn't convinced unfortunately. And our meeting today was about setting a goal for the next 8 weeks or roughly until Halloween. After that it really begins the holiday season. P (the leader) said that from now till then is really our best chance for losing. Then it will be 8 weeks of holiday madness. Then January will come and it will be back to heavy duty losing mode.
I really think a huge portion of my struggle right now is the body image thing. Have I really changed much since I have lost these 30 pounds? I seem to be having an identify crisis these past few weeks. I still look in the mirror and see what was. Is that because I am seeing what is underneath?
I told my leader maybe I just need a therapist. Seriously, maybe I do.