soooo not fun. when your kids throw up, you try to be sympathetic, but want them to just....well, not have the flu. When my little tiny guy was sick, I wanted him better. For all of our sakes.
Then it hit me. Tuesday night I didn't sleep much. I had gone to bed early, but I was awake again before midnight and just felt achy and yucky. I finally fell asleep around 4, then I was up again around 7 to call in sick to work. I was puking by 7:15. It was so awful. I haven't been that sick since I was a teenager I think. I won't give you all the yucky details...but fat panties make good disposable undies when you need such a thing...
I was sick all day. Until after 8 I was still throwing up. That was Wednesday. Thursday was better. I was done with all the puking...the other held on a little longer. But I was just so wiped out. I did finally get out of bed last night to watch a little TV with the fam. This morning D finally had to go back to work so I had to up and at 'em with the kiddos. Not a good morning. A drained and dehydrated mama is not a patient mama. And children who have hardly seen their mama in a couple of days need a patient mama. Or at least a somewhat attentive one.
I do feel better today. I am still really weak and run down. It's hard to eat much since I still get a little tummy ache when I eat too much. And I am still feeling like I could drink and drink and drink and never be satisfied.
One good thing...I may have broken my extra large diet coke first thing in the morning EVERY morning habit. I would literally get out of bed, get dressed quick, throw on some flip flops and head to the gas station...or McD's when they were on sale all summer. I would have my diet coke fix very first thing in the morning. Then I would usually have another one of those mid-day as well. That plus all my water. Yep, I peed like every 10 minutes!
But the caffeine addiction is so hard to break for me. It is so ingrained in me. But after going without for a few days, maybe I can kick it altogether? That is sooooo insanely scary to say. There was a time in my life (when we were newlyweds) that I didn't usually even keep diet coke in our house. Now? ummm, different story. But I know it's not a healthy habit.
Now I'm rambling. Maybe it's a blood sugar thing. Maybe I can convince my dh to fix one more dinner? So far the kids have had pizza and scrambled eggs for dinner. I think tonight is burgers. Thank goodness for hubbies that like to cook!
Friday, September 28, 2007
Sunday, September 23, 2007
the flu
my baby has it and it sucks...he's been really sick...had to take him in to get IV fluids last night.
but not tracking all week? I still lost .4 so I guess I could do that for maintenance...
i'm a little out of it so I'll keep this short. I am glad to see that I am still on the downward slope...last 10 pounds till maintenance with WW...and 15 pounds till I reach my Christmas Challenge goal. More about that later.
but not tracking all week? I still lost .4 so I guess I could do that for maintenance...
i'm a little out of it so I'll keep this short. I am glad to see that I am still on the downward slope...last 10 pounds till maintenance with WW...and 15 pounds till I reach my Christmas Challenge goal. More about that later.
Friday, September 21, 2007
food
I think I am a pretty good cook. Not to be tooting my own horn or anything, but I really like to cook and in a family of 8 where we eat at home really every single night of our lives, I get plenty of practice!
That being said, I don't often share a lot of my ccoking ideas here. I love to read your blogs where you share your recipes...they inspire me. But I know you are not all cooking for an army and trying to do it as economically as possible. We have a farm share which means I always have tons of vegetables around to try to cook in new and exciting ways. We buy our beef as a quarter of beef so I really have no idea how lean or fat it really is...and we recently got a ton of pork from a meat locker that is the same lovely unmarked packaging. I tend to get creative with what I have on hand. I decided when I joined WW that it would be unrealstic to drastically change the way my family eats. D has been a staunch low carb man since before half our children were born. He likes the way he eats. With WW I am much more of a low fat girl. My kids are healthy and some of them are quite active. Jack E is a TINY little guy who I try to get as much WHOLE milk into as possible. I try to get the kids to snack on fruit or yogurt (though they much prefer cereal and lunch meat-not at the same time-not even by the same kid, honestly!) so I always have those options around too.
So, I don't often share what I make for dinner because it wouldn't really help you unless we signed up for wife swap together or something like that. But I do want to mention 2 things we ate this week that were highlights for me.
The first is spaghetti squash. As mamas, we all love the spaghetti dinner. It's easy. It's cheap. And what kid doesn't like it? Tell that to my carb hating dh! We usually save pasta meals for when he isn't home, but a couple times in the past week, we've had spaghetti squash. Granted, I buy 2 of the biggest ones I can find...you don't have to do that. It reheats really well, too. It's great since 1 cup is only 1 point. I still sometimes give the kids whole wheat spaghetti while D and I eat the squash, but the kids want the squash too, so what the heck? It's really not terribly expensive for spaghetti squash this time of year either.
My other yummy dinner this week? This yummy noodle dish. I love chinese food, but it's not WW friendly...and we rarely go out for it or order it in. I made this with Ken's Lite Asian Sesame Dressing instead of the Kraft variety listed here. And I used fresh garlic and ginger and just put red pepper flakes on my bowl. Oh and I used whole wheat cappellini, too. It was really really tasty and I felt like I was eating Chinese food for a LOT fewer points. The next time I do it, I'll definitely add more veggies aside from the broccoli. Maybe pepper strips and pea pods and julienned carrots. I totally loved this! This was what I ate Wednesday night when I said I "overdid" it at dinner.
I haven't put it though the recipe builder yet. In fact I'll do that now and update with how many points per serving it is.
And I am really looking forward to my meeting tomorrow and buying a new little tracker notebook. I ran out last week and thought I'd just use a notebook. I miss my little book!!!
just ran it through...8 points for a large 2 cup serving withoout the peanuts
That being said, I don't often share a lot of my ccoking ideas here. I love to read your blogs where you share your recipes...they inspire me. But I know you are not all cooking for an army and trying to do it as economically as possible. We have a farm share which means I always have tons of vegetables around to try to cook in new and exciting ways. We buy our beef as a quarter of beef so I really have no idea how lean or fat it really is...and we recently got a ton of pork from a meat locker that is the same lovely unmarked packaging. I tend to get creative with what I have on hand. I decided when I joined WW that it would be unrealstic to drastically change the way my family eats. D has been a staunch low carb man since before half our children were born. He likes the way he eats. With WW I am much more of a low fat girl. My kids are healthy and some of them are quite active. Jack E is a TINY little guy who I try to get as much WHOLE milk into as possible. I try to get the kids to snack on fruit or yogurt (though they much prefer cereal and lunch meat-not at the same time-not even by the same kid, honestly!) so I always have those options around too.
So, I don't often share what I make for dinner because it wouldn't really help you unless we signed up for wife swap together or something like that. But I do want to mention 2 things we ate this week that were highlights for me.
The first is spaghetti squash. As mamas, we all love the spaghetti dinner. It's easy. It's cheap. And what kid doesn't like it? Tell that to my carb hating dh! We usually save pasta meals for when he isn't home, but a couple times in the past week, we've had spaghetti squash. Granted, I buy 2 of the biggest ones I can find...you don't have to do that. It reheats really well, too. It's great since 1 cup is only 1 point. I still sometimes give the kids whole wheat spaghetti while D and I eat the squash, but the kids want the squash too, so what the heck? It's really not terribly expensive for spaghetti squash this time of year either.
My other yummy dinner this week? This yummy noodle dish. I love chinese food, but it's not WW friendly...and we rarely go out for it or order it in. I made this with Ken's Lite Asian Sesame Dressing instead of the Kraft variety listed here. And I used fresh garlic and ginger and just put red pepper flakes on my bowl. Oh and I used whole wheat cappellini, too. It was really really tasty and I felt like I was eating Chinese food for a LOT fewer points. The next time I do it, I'll definitely add more veggies aside from the broccoli. Maybe pepper strips and pea pods and julienned carrots. I totally loved this! This was what I ate Wednesday night when I said I "overdid" it at dinner.
I haven't put it though the recipe builder yet. In fact I'll do that now and update with how many points per serving it is.
And I am really looking forward to my meeting tomorrow and buying a new little tracker notebook. I ran out last week and thought I'd just use a notebook. I miss my little book!!!
just ran it through...8 points for a large 2 cup serving withoout the peanuts
Thursday, September 20, 2007
this is scary...
I haven't tracked all week!!! You have to know what kind of WW I am to know how scary this is for me. Even on vacation I was tracking...even as each day was deeper and deeper into a flex point deficit. I have gone to weigh in EVERY single week since I signed up for WW. I am a total nerd...try to follow all the rules and do all the right things.
I started tracking on Saturday. Then I had my 3 extra kiddos that afternoon and evening. I had 1.5 slices of cheese pizza for dinner and was going to log it, but didn't get to it. Sunday morning was busy so I didn't write down my bagel...or all the cookies I ate as I was baking them! Then we headed to our farm-share farm for their big harvest festival which is a potluck. They grill burgers for everyone and we bring sides and desserts.
Some potluck things are easy to pass up. There are usually lots of dishes that involved mixes or cream of something soup. Not at this one. These are peope who get an organic farm share each week. They know countless ways to prepare green beans and broccoli and cabbage and potatoes...that don't involve anything from a can or jar. And of course, as we were driving up there, I realized I was STARVING!!!
So I ate whatever and didn't worry about it. I decided those would be my flex points and I'd stay low the rest of the week. I did have this incredible apple cake/torte thing that was amazing...whole wheat flour and all! (I took zucchini oatmeal chocolate chip cookies just so you know that I too am totally into the weird food thing...and yes they had whole wheat flour, too)
The neat thing for me, was that I was able to eat and enjoy it and visit with people, too. I tend to be really weird this way. I like my private binges. It's easy not to over eat at the party, but then when every one is gone I finish off half a cake or something like that. I over ate while I talked to my daughter about how good the food tasted. I'm not sure why, but that seems like a big deal to me.
So why didn't I start tracking Monday morning? The flu, my friends. I didn't feel well Sunday night...and by Monday afternoon I was waaaaaaay worse. I was really sick. Tuesday was a little better, but I really didn't eat much those few days except for reduced fat store brand cheezits.
Yesterday was my first day of normal eating. I took a good lunch with me to work, and had a great snack. I overdid it at dinner a little (which was an awesome recipe I'll share later). But I also did well with my water.
At this point I am just experimenting. I honestly don't want to record every thing I put into my mouth for the rest of my life. I hope at some point to just eat and make healthy choices and maintain a healthy weight. If I start gaining, I will totally jump back in, but I want to get away from the tracking some day so this week has been an experiment to see if I have any self regulating stuff in my head yet or not.
And my size 12 jean capris that I have LIVED in for months and months now are quite saggy today. So we'll see...
I started tracking on Saturday. Then I had my 3 extra kiddos that afternoon and evening. I had 1.5 slices of cheese pizza for dinner and was going to log it, but didn't get to it. Sunday morning was busy so I didn't write down my bagel...or all the cookies I ate as I was baking them! Then we headed to our farm-share farm for their big harvest festival which is a potluck. They grill burgers for everyone and we bring sides and desserts.
Some potluck things are easy to pass up. There are usually lots of dishes that involved mixes or cream of something soup. Not at this one. These are peope who get an organic farm share each week. They know countless ways to prepare green beans and broccoli and cabbage and potatoes...that don't involve anything from a can or jar. And of course, as we were driving up there, I realized I was STARVING!!!
So I ate whatever and didn't worry about it. I decided those would be my flex points and I'd stay low the rest of the week. I did have this incredible apple cake/torte thing that was amazing...whole wheat flour and all! (I took zucchini oatmeal chocolate chip cookies just so you know that I too am totally into the weird food thing...and yes they had whole wheat flour, too)
The neat thing for me, was that I was able to eat and enjoy it and visit with people, too. I tend to be really weird this way. I like my private binges. It's easy not to over eat at the party, but then when every one is gone I finish off half a cake or something like that. I over ate while I talked to my daughter about how good the food tasted. I'm not sure why, but that seems like a big deal to me.
So why didn't I start tracking Monday morning? The flu, my friends. I didn't feel well Sunday night...and by Monday afternoon I was waaaaaaay worse. I was really sick. Tuesday was a little better, but I really didn't eat much those few days except for reduced fat store brand cheezits.
Yesterday was my first day of normal eating. I took a good lunch with me to work, and had a great snack. I overdid it at dinner a little (which was an awesome recipe I'll share later). But I also did well with my water.
At this point I am just experimenting. I honestly don't want to record every thing I put into my mouth for the rest of my life. I hope at some point to just eat and make healthy choices and maintain a healthy weight. If I start gaining, I will totally jump back in, but I want to get away from the tracking some day so this week has been an experiment to see if I have any self regulating stuff in my head yet or not.
And my size 12 jean capris that I have LIVED in for months and months now are quite saggy today. So we'll see...
Saturday, September 15, 2007
it works!!!
Imagine that! I actually worked the program and I lost weight! Who knew?!?!?!
So my loss for this week was 4 pounds. Two of those were what I think was a temporary gain that showed up last week, and the other 2 are getting me back to my low spot before vacation. I am happy with it.
It does feel encouraging to know that I am going in the right direction. Of the 3 areas that I chose to focus on for the next 8 weeks, I really only got the water down well and the planning was coming along. This week I want to make sure to get all the water in and do well with planning and try to move more. Then hopefully the week after can just be a focus on the movement as the other 2 will be frim habits. Does that make sense?
Last week at my meeting, my plan was to get to 158 (my lowest WI so far) by the end of 8 weeks (Nov 3) and just call it over...start maintenance from there. I just didn't feel very confident that I would ever get to my goal. I think now I am revamping that goal to get to 150 by November 3. That means 10 pounds in 7 weeks. It is possible, I know. I don't want to set that goal too far out of reach, but I do feel really good like I am sooooo close, I just want to be there.
Since I CAN'T control what the number says, instead I will choose to control the things I can. I will drink my water, plan my days and move more. I know that will result in weight loss and good vibes for me. And I am pretty confident that I will be at that 150 goal or close to it by the time November 3 rolls around.
What do you think?
So my loss for this week was 4 pounds. Two of those were what I think was a temporary gain that showed up last week, and the other 2 are getting me back to my low spot before vacation. I am happy with it.
It does feel encouraging to know that I am going in the right direction. Of the 3 areas that I chose to focus on for the next 8 weeks, I really only got the water down well and the planning was coming along. This week I want to make sure to get all the water in and do well with planning and try to move more. Then hopefully the week after can just be a focus on the movement as the other 2 will be frim habits. Does that make sense?
Last week at my meeting, my plan was to get to 158 (my lowest WI so far) by the end of 8 weeks (Nov 3) and just call it over...start maintenance from there. I just didn't feel very confident that I would ever get to my goal. I think now I am revamping that goal to get to 150 by November 3. That means 10 pounds in 7 weeks. It is possible, I know. I don't want to set that goal too far out of reach, but I do feel really good like I am sooooo close, I just want to be there.
Since I CAN'T control what the number says, instead I will choose to control the things I can. I will drink my water, plan my days and move more. I know that will result in weight loss and good vibes for me. And I am pretty confident that I will be at that 150 goal or close to it by the time November 3 rolls around.
What do you think?
Thursday, September 13, 2007
cravings...
Yesterday, I was like a bottomless pit. Cravings like crazy for...protein. So I followed it and didn't worry that I was going deep into my weekly points. I felt like if I was craving turkey. it was for a reason and I should go with it.
And I am having a really hard time with TOM the past couple of days, too, so I think it's my body's way of getting enough iron and what not.
I am doing really well with WW this week. I was so discouraged on Saturday at my meeting, We did one of those goofy worksheets they have about winning outcomes or some such thing. Since we had just set a goal for 8 weeks out, we were supposed to figure out the strategy that would get us there. I said I would:
1-Drink my water. At least 64 oz a day.
2-Plan my meals and snacks better so I wasn't always at the end of my points by dinner.
3-Really focus on getting in walks nearly every morning. Since I only go to work early on Wednesday's, it's feasible to get an early walk every day but Wednesday.
So how is this week stacking up so far? I have totally regained my water habit. In fact, last night I wanted something after dinner, took a big ol' drink of water and was satisfied. I realized that I was just thirsty.
I've done some better planning. Yesterday was all out the window, but other than that I've done really well with planning ahead.
Exercise? Between Kelli's tummy issue and my own crampy stuff, I've been in bed till the last possible second most days. Yesterday at work I decided to take my babies for a walk in their double stroller. Ummm, they live in the mountains...even though it was only 15 minutes, my calves are killing my from all the uphill pushing. And the babies loved taking a ride, too!
So I am feeling much more on top of it these days. Like I really can get to 150...wow, how long has it been since I was THERE?!?!
And I am having a really hard time with TOM the past couple of days, too, so I think it's my body's way of getting enough iron and what not.
I am doing really well with WW this week. I was so discouraged on Saturday at my meeting, We did one of those goofy worksheets they have about winning outcomes or some such thing. Since we had just set a goal for 8 weeks out, we were supposed to figure out the strategy that would get us there. I said I would:
1-Drink my water. At least 64 oz a day.
2-Plan my meals and snacks better so I wasn't always at the end of my points by dinner.
3-Really focus on getting in walks nearly every morning. Since I only go to work early on Wednesday's, it's feasible to get an early walk every day but Wednesday.
So how is this week stacking up so far? I have totally regained my water habit. In fact, last night I wanted something after dinner, took a big ol' drink of water and was satisfied. I realized that I was just thirsty.
I've done some better planning. Yesterday was all out the window, but other than that I've done really well with planning ahead.
Exercise? Between Kelli's tummy issue and my own crampy stuff, I've been in bed till the last possible second most days. Yesterday at work I decided to take my babies for a walk in their double stroller. Ummm, they live in the mountains...even though it was only 15 minutes, my calves are killing my from all the uphill pushing. And the babies loved taking a ride, too!
So I am feeling much more on top of it these days. Like I really can get to 150...wow, how long has it been since I was THERE?!?!
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
weight loss is like having a baby
And, no, I don't mean in that goofy way that people say the fastest way to lose 15 pounds is to give birth. That's stupid since you usually gain way more than those measly little 15 pounds when you are preggo and those 15 pounds are just the tip of the iceberg!
No, I just realized that a lot of my feelings about my body mirror those that I've had in the hours and weeks after giving birth. And since I've given birth 6 times and NEVER lost more than 25 pounds before in my life, I'd thougth I'd try this analogy out.
All 6 times that I have gone to the hospital to give birth, I have felt HUGE!!! My skin was stretched. I was uncomfortable moving around. My center of balance was waaaay off. I didn't want to feel like that anymore. After that baby is out it is suddenly so much easier to move around. I can breathe again. The ache is gone from my hips and pelvis (except with Trey who bruised my tailbone or some such crazy thing!). Then within a few hours I take my first shower post partum and feel so SKINNY!!! My belly is no longer stretched beyond recognition. (I should add that I got stretch marks with every single one of my kids except Jack E-no wonder he's my favorite!).
And I am incredibly proud of what my body has accomplished. I have just birthed my child. I have had really easy deliveries (even with 2 inductions and 2 augmentations) and little to no medication with each birth. I was always amazed in the hours after each baby's birth that this little person had just emerged from my body. The feeling of having that hard little head emerge and know that we had done this together was euphoric.
That's a lot like how I felt after losing the first 25 pounds or so with WW. I was stunned and amazed that I had lost that much weight so easily. I was thrilled with how my body looked. I felt so incedibly skinny and hot.
A couple of weeks or a month after each baby was born and I was starting to feel in the groove of the motherhood thing again, I would want to get back to my "regular" clothes. I would try to pull on some jeans and realize how flabby my belly still was. It was always such a shocker to realized that even though I didn't look like I did when I was pregnant, I was far from back to "normal". This is really kind of ironic for me since there hasn't been much time between any of my pregnancies. And really, my hips didn't go back to normal until after I weaned my baby last winter...which means they were in their "loosened" state (ie an entire jeans size largerfor my big ol' butt) from 1995 until early 2007. UGH!
I think I'm at that place now. I am not a size 18 anymore, or squeezing myself into those 18's. I am really quite securely in a size 12, which are many days a little loose even. I have a much thinner face. I have some parts of me that really look pretty good. But I am not skinny yet. I think my frustration with my body and weight loss efforts lately come from that dissatisfaction with me. I am still incredibly proud of what I have accomplished. Not only has this body birthed and nourished 6 babies, but I have lost over 30 pounds now...over holiday's and birthdays and an anniversary and a vacation, too. I don't have my little saggy spot on the side of my belly anymore. It's that kind of post six pregnancies in 10 years sag you'd expect me to have. The sag is nearly gone but the belly is far from flat.
But I'm a lot closer now than I was 10 months ago. And as my nearly 2 year old baby sits here laughing and tickling at my neck, I realize that this is a journey...a process...one that will be a lifelong thing. Just like I will never stop being "mama", I won't stop working on this body.
No, I just realized that a lot of my feelings about my body mirror those that I've had in the hours and weeks after giving birth. And since I've given birth 6 times and NEVER lost more than 25 pounds before in my life, I'd thougth I'd try this analogy out.
All 6 times that I have gone to the hospital to give birth, I have felt HUGE!!! My skin was stretched. I was uncomfortable moving around. My center of balance was waaaay off. I didn't want to feel like that anymore. After that baby is out it is suddenly so much easier to move around. I can breathe again. The ache is gone from my hips and pelvis (except with Trey who bruised my tailbone or some such crazy thing!). Then within a few hours I take my first shower post partum and feel so SKINNY!!! My belly is no longer stretched beyond recognition. (I should add that I got stretch marks with every single one of my kids except Jack E-no wonder he's my favorite!).
And I am incredibly proud of what my body has accomplished. I have just birthed my child. I have had really easy deliveries (even with 2 inductions and 2 augmentations) and little to no medication with each birth. I was always amazed in the hours after each baby's birth that this little person had just emerged from my body. The feeling of having that hard little head emerge and know that we had done this together was euphoric.
That's a lot like how I felt after losing the first 25 pounds or so with WW. I was stunned and amazed that I had lost that much weight so easily. I was thrilled with how my body looked. I felt so incedibly skinny and hot.
A couple of weeks or a month after each baby was born and I was starting to feel in the groove of the motherhood thing again, I would want to get back to my "regular" clothes. I would try to pull on some jeans and realize how flabby my belly still was. It was always such a shocker to realized that even though I didn't look like I did when I was pregnant, I was far from back to "normal". This is really kind of ironic for me since there hasn't been much time between any of my pregnancies. And really, my hips didn't go back to normal until after I weaned my baby last winter...which means they were in their "loosened" state (ie an entire jeans size largerfor my big ol' butt) from 1995 until early 2007. UGH!
I think I'm at that place now. I am not a size 18 anymore, or squeezing myself into those 18's. I am really quite securely in a size 12, which are many days a little loose even. I have a much thinner face. I have some parts of me that really look pretty good. But I am not skinny yet. I think my frustration with my body and weight loss efforts lately come from that dissatisfaction with me. I am still incredibly proud of what I have accomplished. Not only has this body birthed and nourished 6 babies, but I have lost over 30 pounds now...over holiday's and birthdays and an anniversary and a vacation, too. I don't have my little saggy spot on the side of my belly anymore. It's that kind of post six pregnancies in 10 years sag you'd expect me to have. The sag is nearly gone but the belly is far from flat.
But I'm a lot closer now than I was 10 months ago. And as my nearly 2 year old baby sits here laughing and tickling at my neck, I realize that this is a journey...a process...one that will be a lifelong thing. Just like I will never stop being "mama", I won't stop working on this body.
Monday, September 10, 2007
what's changed?
So, I'm better now. I was in a icky place Saturday. I was tired. I tried to nap. YEAH RIGHT!!! Emma kept asking me when I would be done sleeping. Kelli kept coming in to ask me if she could eat something. Then D called. Then Jack E pooped and came in to get a clean diaper.
I gave up and went for a long walk. It was good. I seem to do a lot of good thinking while I walk. I was listening to my music and just reflecting.
I was thinking about something my WW leader had said when she weighed me in that morning. I said I had changed a lot since I started WW...she said maybe I hadn't really changed that much at all.
So I thought about what has changed. I have started drinking my 64 oz of water nearly every day. I choose fruit or yogurt for a snack almost always. I don't usually turn to food to medicate my moods any more. I plan my foods for the day early on and make healthy choices from that. On the days I will be out, I plan for that by taking healthy foods with me. I shop differently too when I am at the grocery store.
I think I just needed to remind myself that I HAVE made changes in my lifestyle. I am so close to finishing this journey to getting to my goal weight that I am not going to give up now.
And lately when I look in the mirror I see a slim face with GREAT cheekbones.
I gave up and went for a long walk. It was good. I seem to do a lot of good thinking while I walk. I was listening to my music and just reflecting.
I was thinking about something my WW leader had said when she weighed me in that morning. I said I had changed a lot since I started WW...she said maybe I hadn't really changed that much at all.
So I thought about what has changed. I have started drinking my 64 oz of water nearly every day. I choose fruit or yogurt for a snack almost always. I don't usually turn to food to medicate my moods any more. I plan my foods for the day early on and make healthy choices from that. On the days I will be out, I plan for that by taking healthy foods with me. I shop differently too when I am at the grocery store.
I think I just needed to remind myself that I HAVE made changes in my lifestyle. I am so close to finishing this journey to getting to my goal weight that I am not going to give up now.
And lately when I look in the mirror I see a slim face with GREAT cheekbones.
Saturday, September 8, 2007
and it shows
Today I was back up 2 pounds. I didn't put it on my sidebar or adjust my ticker. I don't want to.
Maybe it's not so bad. After all, yesterday I froze about 4 bushels of corn. So I was standing in the kitchen all day. I had 3 huge diet Cokes, not much water and some herbal iced tea. I didn't eat dinner till after 9 o'clock, either. So maybe that's all it is?!
Yeah, right.
When I weighed in with my meeting leader, I told her I just feel "done". I don't want to do this anymore. Maybe I should just sit here for a while and call this goal?
She wasn't convinced unfortunately. And our meeting today was about setting a goal for the next 8 weeks or roughly until Halloween. After that it really begins the holiday season. P (the leader) said that from now till then is really our best chance for losing. Then it will be 8 weeks of holiday madness. Then January will come and it will be back to heavy duty losing mode.
I really think a huge portion of my struggle right now is the body image thing. Have I really changed much since I have lost these 30 pounds? I seem to be having an identify crisis these past few weeks. I still look in the mirror and see what was. Is that because I am seeing what is underneath?
I told my leader maybe I just need a therapist. Seriously, maybe I do.
Maybe it's not so bad. After all, yesterday I froze about 4 bushels of corn. So I was standing in the kitchen all day. I had 3 huge diet Cokes, not much water and some herbal iced tea. I didn't eat dinner till after 9 o'clock, either. So maybe that's all it is?!
Yeah, right.
When I weighed in with my meeting leader, I told her I just feel "done". I don't want to do this anymore. Maybe I should just sit here for a while and call this goal?
She wasn't convinced unfortunately. And our meeting today was about setting a goal for the next 8 weeks or roughly until Halloween. After that it really begins the holiday season. P (the leader) said that from now till then is really our best chance for losing. Then it will be 8 weeks of holiday madness. Then January will come and it will be back to heavy duty losing mode.
I really think a huge portion of my struggle right now is the body image thing. Have I really changed much since I have lost these 30 pounds? I seem to be having an identify crisis these past few weeks. I still look in the mirror and see what was. Is that because I am seeing what is underneath?
I told my leader maybe I just need a therapist. Seriously, maybe I do.
Friday, September 7, 2007
so unmotivated
I have just been swinging like crazy on the pendulum of motivation this week.
I overdid it on the weekend, but did great on Monday. Tuesday was good, but then I was starved in the afternoon so basically ate a second lunch. That wouldn't have been a problem except that the kids' school was having a fundraiser at our local pizza buffet place. I had an issue with one of the kids...actually he had an issue with me...and I didn't feel like everyone was eating their money's worth...so I had too much pizza.
The next few days have followed suit. I am just really struggling with seeing myself as a thin person. I know I'm not "thin" but I think I still see myself as a size 18. Need to work on that...
I don't have anything else to offer right now...maybe later?
I overdid it on the weekend, but did great on Monday. Tuesday was good, but then I was starved in the afternoon so basically ate a second lunch. That wouldn't have been a problem except that the kids' school was having a fundraiser at our local pizza buffet place. I had an issue with one of the kids...actually he had an issue with me...and I didn't feel like everyone was eating their money's worth...so I had too much pizza.
The next few days have followed suit. I am just really struggling with seeing myself as a thin person. I know I'm not "thin" but I think I still see myself as a size 18. Need to work on that...
I don't have anything else to offer right now...maybe later?
Monday, September 3, 2007
what a weekend!!!
It's still officially Labor Day Weekend, I guess, but I need the weekend to be OVER so I can get back on track.
Saturday was just as crazy busy as Friday had been. I did get through all my 3 bushels of tomatoes that needed to be canned or "put up" somehow. I have a few left to eat this week though honestly they are not looking very appetizing right now. I canned 7 quarts of green beans and froze a bushel of corn....that's about 50 ears that we shucked, blanched and cut off the cob to freeze.
Then we had a Brew party on Sunday. That's where D takes over the kitchen for the day and makes a batch of beer...or 2 like yesterday. It was really fun. We invited over some neighbors and just hung out.
What does that mean on the food front?
Well, Saturday morning after my WI I picked up doughnuts for the kiddos. Aleena had a friend over and I just took the easy way out when it came to feeding everybody breakfast. That was a big mistake. Jack took a bite or two from all the doughnuts and so did Mama! UGH...
Lunch? Ummmm, I think I ate a few bites of the mac and cheese that Aleena made for lunch. It was by Annie's organics so that makes it better, right?
For dinner, we got McDonald's. I totally bribed my children to clean the house while I finished doing corn and tomatoes with the evil McD's. I even told the boys they could have whatever sandwich they wanted...no price limit. I of course had a big ol' burger and a ton of fries. I had hardly eaten all day and had been working like crazy!!!
Sunday morning, Aleena and I finally got to the weekly grocery shopping around 7 am. I ate a bagel while we shopped. We made a quick lunch of quesadillas...mine was with a whole wheat tortilla and reduced fat cheese.
Then neighbors came over and it got ugly. It started with the cranberry martini...then a green apple one...or two, I'm not really sure. There was that yummy 7 layer dip...and bacon cheddar ranch dip with potato chips...and some pineapple cake with a yummy cream cheese frosting. I'm not sure what else...
The bad thing about brew parties is the guys take over the kitchen and are busy the whole time while the women sit around and eat!!! Next time we are having healthier choices!!!
So this morning I got up and took a walk before the brood was awake. I haven't done that in probably a month. I have really missed that time, but just haven't been able to add in that one more thing. And I have really tried to make healthier choices today. Days like the last 2 are really an anomaly for me, so I am not going to get freaked out by it. I am up a pound since Saturday morning, but I have a feeling it's all salt and alcohol. It does feel good to get back on track today, that's for sure!
Emma is bugging me to go do something in the kitchen with her. Gotta go...
Saturday was just as crazy busy as Friday had been. I did get through all my 3 bushels of tomatoes that needed to be canned or "put up" somehow. I have a few left to eat this week though honestly they are not looking very appetizing right now. I canned 7 quarts of green beans and froze a bushel of corn....that's about 50 ears that we shucked, blanched and cut off the cob to freeze.
Then we had a Brew party on Sunday. That's where D takes over the kitchen for the day and makes a batch of beer...or 2 like yesterday. It was really fun. We invited over some neighbors and just hung out.
What does that mean on the food front?
Well, Saturday morning after my WI I picked up doughnuts for the kiddos. Aleena had a friend over and I just took the easy way out when it came to feeding everybody breakfast. That was a big mistake. Jack took a bite or two from all the doughnuts and so did Mama! UGH...
Lunch? Ummmm, I think I ate a few bites of the mac and cheese that Aleena made for lunch. It was by Annie's organics so that makes it better, right?
For dinner, we got McDonald's. I totally bribed my children to clean the house while I finished doing corn and tomatoes with the evil McD's. I even told the boys they could have whatever sandwich they wanted...no price limit. I of course had a big ol' burger and a ton of fries. I had hardly eaten all day and had been working like crazy!!!
Sunday morning, Aleena and I finally got to the weekly grocery shopping around 7 am. I ate a bagel while we shopped. We made a quick lunch of quesadillas...mine was with a whole wheat tortilla and reduced fat cheese.
Then neighbors came over and it got ugly. It started with the cranberry martini...then a green apple one...or two, I'm not really sure. There was that yummy 7 layer dip...and bacon cheddar ranch dip with potato chips...and some pineapple cake with a yummy cream cheese frosting. I'm not sure what else...
The bad thing about brew parties is the guys take over the kitchen and are busy the whole time while the women sit around and eat!!! Next time we are having healthier choices!!!
So this morning I got up and took a walk before the brood was awake. I haven't done that in probably a month. I have really missed that time, but just haven't been able to add in that one more thing. And I have really tried to make healthier choices today. Days like the last 2 are really an anomaly for me, so I am not going to get freaked out by it. I am up a pound since Saturday morning, but I have a feeling it's all salt and alcohol. It does feel good to get back on track today, that's for sure!
Emma is bugging me to go do something in the kitchen with her. Gotta go...
Saturday, September 1, 2007
quick check in
Just ran over to weigh in...I didn't stay for a meeting this morning since I have sooooo much to do and I slept through the early meeting! :P
I did finally have a loss so I am feeling good about that. I have had some much better days. BUT Thursday night was BAD BAD BAD! It was a long hard day...and it just got crazier. I didn't eat much dinner so therefore felt justified in having some ice cream. Well, you know what that means. Polished off more than a half gallon. Not my plan when I started, but I did it. Just like old times....**sigh**.
Yesterday was just crazy busy. I was on the move all day. I'm in the middle of canning tomatoes...tomato paste, tomato sauce, stewed tomatoes. I get really obsessed when it is sitting in my kitchen and end up working on it for 12-14 hours of the day...along with running kids around and trying to keep them fed.
I tried to eat well yesterday. I've done really well with water this week...until yesterday. I did just get the bare minimum in. I guzzled 32 ounces before I went to bed around midnight. Which meant I was up around 2 to pee pee. Then Kelli was in my bed crying over a bad dream at 3:30. No wonder I slept through that alarm at 6!
Gotta go get my water bath canner going!
I did finally have a loss so I am feeling good about that. I have had some much better days. BUT Thursday night was BAD BAD BAD! It was a long hard day...and it just got crazier. I didn't eat much dinner so therefore felt justified in having some ice cream. Well, you know what that means. Polished off more than a half gallon. Not my plan when I started, but I did it. Just like old times....**sigh**.
Yesterday was just crazy busy. I was on the move all day. I'm in the middle of canning tomatoes...tomato paste, tomato sauce, stewed tomatoes. I get really obsessed when it is sitting in my kitchen and end up working on it for 12-14 hours of the day...along with running kids around and trying to keep them fed.
I tried to eat well yesterday. I've done really well with water this week...until yesterday. I did just get the bare minimum in. I guzzled 32 ounces before I went to bed around midnight. Which meant I was up around 2 to pee pee. Then Kelli was in my bed crying over a bad dream at 3:30. No wonder I slept through that alarm at 6!
Gotta go get my water bath canner going!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
new day
Today was a much better day-FINALLY! My goals for this week were to drink all my water and think before I eat something.
I did get all my water in yesterday, but I was eating more than I should have. Like last night, the kids had sloppy joes and oven fries and fruit for dinner. I totally picked at their fries. Just shouldn't have done that. Today has been a really good day. I am proud of the choices I have made for the first time in a couple of weeks. I did start my day with oatmeal which is a rarity for me. I think that may have had somehting to do with my successful on plan day. I'm going to try the oatmeal again tomorrow to see how it goes.
I really do feel good about the food I ate today. But I really don't feel good about those pounds that I think have taken up residence on my belly and booty. I was hoping it was just vacation weght, but I am thinking I am going to have to really work to get it off. Oh, well. At least I know how to do the WW thing and get back to losing it. I haven't been walking lately either. It's been just that one more thing that I can't seem to add into my life again. I do miss that solitude. The kids have a late start tomorrow so I'm thinking I may get up and go for a walk since I don't have quite the same schedule to keep. I've actually been thinking of doing that whole CP25K thing!!! **GASP**
There are days when I really wish I had a treadmill. But then, where would I put it?!
I did get all my water in yesterday, but I was eating more than I should have. Like last night, the kids had sloppy joes and oven fries and fruit for dinner. I totally picked at their fries. Just shouldn't have done that. Today has been a really good day. I am proud of the choices I have made for the first time in a couple of weeks. I did start my day with oatmeal which is a rarity for me. I think that may have had somehting to do with my successful on plan day. I'm going to try the oatmeal again tomorrow to see how it goes.
I really do feel good about the food I ate today. But I really don't feel good about those pounds that I think have taken up residence on my belly and booty. I was hoping it was just vacation weght, but I am thinking I am going to have to really work to get it off. Oh, well. At least I know how to do the WW thing and get back to losing it. I haven't been walking lately either. It's been just that one more thing that I can't seem to add into my life again. I do miss that solitude. The kids have a late start tomorrow so I'm thinking I may get up and go for a walk since I don't have quite the same schedule to keep. I've actually been thinking of doing that whole CP25K thing!!! **GASP**
There are days when I really wish I had a treadmill. But then, where would I put it?!
Sunday, August 26, 2007
"as long as it takes..."
That was the theme of my meeting yesterday (and probably for all of you last week, too!).
It's very timely for me. I started my 40th week of WW yesterday. I really thought that I would have been at my lifetime and personal goal 40 weeks into this program. But I'm not. And I'm trying to decide if I'm OK with that or if I want to revamp my goals. I set my WW goal solely on their little chart in the book about BMI. And my personal goal comes from high school. I weighed 143-148 in high school, except for the few weeks after I had mono when I bought my one and only pair of size 9 jeans! LOL
But I feel pretty comfortable hovering around 160 so maybe that needs to be my goal?
Right now I have my mini goal of getting back to 158. That was where I was before vacation. I came back at 165...and I'm still here.
In all honesty, Friday morning my bathroom scale said 161.4...but then Firday night I ordered pizza for the kids and me to celebrate the first week of school. I ate sooo much more than I should have. Honestly it started earlier in the day with about 5 cookies. That didn't leave me many points for dinner, but so be it. It really was my plan to have a Lean Cuisine or Smart Ones for dinner. But then I opened that box and saw the pepperoni and sausage pizza that I ordered for the boys and it was all over. I had 2 slices of that and 2 slices of cheese and some cinna-bread. I honestly made myself sick. I was sooooo full that I hurt. At that point I knew my WI Saturday morning would suck. And all I could think about was how much fun Friday night pizza night could be (if I didn't go so crazy) and how I really should change my day for WI!
So I had a week with no loss after having a big gain. So be it. I knew it would happen after all that pizza. And I really am not doing well with my water. I need to just guzzle it a couple times a day and get it in. But I digress...
At our meeting yesterday, my leader was talking about the big goals that we have...to get rid of the fat...but also about the little goals we need to have. Lately my big goal and little goal have been the same...to get to my goal weight. And I'm not sure I can reach that right now. So my little goal for the weeks to come is to lose these 7 pounds. It is vacation weight and pizza pig out weight and TOM weight so I'm hoping it goes away quickly. But that is the only goal I have in sight right now...7 pounds.
Then I will decide if I really want to lose those next 10 pounds or if I can be comfortable with them. I know that I have accomplished a lot by losing what I have already. I am really proud of that. And I feel like I am at a place where I can maintain and not gain it all back. I have learned so much about myself and my eating habits with WW. And I know this is an eating plan that I will need to stick to for the rest of my life. It is too easy for me to go back to my old ways...and gain weight. So I am committed to getting to 158 again...as long as it takes!
@ lainb-
My leader wasn't solely referring to weight loss goals. Like someone said her goal was to track every day. Someone else was aiming for the 8 healthy guidelines most days.
Getting enough water...limiting alcohol...working in more movement...those are all goals that would lead to weight loss but aren't necessarily scale related. I do like these kinds of goals more because they are something we can control. It's not always possible to control what the scale says...but I can control what I do to help it move.
So, after re-thinking this my goals for this week are to get my water in each day and to really consider what I put in my mouth BEFORE I eat it. This week has been crazy and I haven't always made the healthiest choices...or stopped eating when I was really satisfied. So I want to get that back into check.
Thanks for making me think harder!!!
It's very timely for me. I started my 40th week of WW yesterday. I really thought that I would have been at my lifetime and personal goal 40 weeks into this program. But I'm not. And I'm trying to decide if I'm OK with that or if I want to revamp my goals. I set my WW goal solely on their little chart in the book about BMI. And my personal goal comes from high school. I weighed 143-148 in high school, except for the few weeks after I had mono when I bought my one and only pair of size 9 jeans! LOL
But I feel pretty comfortable hovering around 160 so maybe that needs to be my goal?
Right now I have my mini goal of getting back to 158. That was where I was before vacation. I came back at 165...and I'm still here.
In all honesty, Friday morning my bathroom scale said 161.4...but then Firday night I ordered pizza for the kids and me to celebrate the first week of school. I ate sooo much more than I should have. Honestly it started earlier in the day with about 5 cookies. That didn't leave me many points for dinner, but so be it. It really was my plan to have a Lean Cuisine or Smart Ones for dinner. But then I opened that box and saw the pepperoni and sausage pizza that I ordered for the boys and it was all over. I had 2 slices of that and 2 slices of cheese and some cinna-bread. I honestly made myself sick. I was sooooo full that I hurt. At that point I knew my WI Saturday morning would suck. And all I could think about was how much fun Friday night pizza night could be (if I didn't go so crazy) and how I really should change my day for WI!
So I had a week with no loss after having a big gain. So be it. I knew it would happen after all that pizza. And I really am not doing well with my water. I need to just guzzle it a couple times a day and get it in. But I digress...
At our meeting yesterday, my leader was talking about the big goals that we have...to get rid of the fat...but also about the little goals we need to have. Lately my big goal and little goal have been the same...to get to my goal weight. And I'm not sure I can reach that right now. So my little goal for the weeks to come is to lose these 7 pounds. It is vacation weight and pizza pig out weight and TOM weight so I'm hoping it goes away quickly. But that is the only goal I have in sight right now...7 pounds.
Then I will decide if I really want to lose those next 10 pounds or if I can be comfortable with them. I know that I have accomplished a lot by losing what I have already. I am really proud of that. And I feel like I am at a place where I can maintain and not gain it all back. I have learned so much about myself and my eating habits with WW. And I know this is an eating plan that I will need to stick to for the rest of my life. It is too easy for me to go back to my old ways...and gain weight. So I am committed to getting to 158 again...as long as it takes!
@ lainb-
My leader wasn't solely referring to weight loss goals. Like someone said her goal was to track every day. Someone else was aiming for the 8 healthy guidelines most days.
Getting enough water...limiting alcohol...working in more movement...those are all goals that would lead to weight loss but aren't necessarily scale related. I do like these kinds of goals more because they are something we can control. It's not always possible to control what the scale says...but I can control what I do to help it move.
So, after re-thinking this my goals for this week are to get my water in each day and to really consider what I put in my mouth BEFORE I eat it. This week has been crazy and I haven't always made the healthiest choices...or stopped eating when I was really satisfied. So I want to get that back into check.
Thanks for making me think harder!!!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
back on the wagon
I've done OK being on plan this week, but I've been really busy getting all the kids settled in at school. Still working on that, in fact. Who knew that Office Max would actually sell out of graph papaer? And who would guess that Target would sell out of BINDERS?!
I've been just running around and trying to make good choices. I'm not doing as well with water as I should be. Hard to get back to the water when I am just craving a fizzy diet coke...
And it's my TOM...guess crying over laundry and a full dishwasher last night should have been a clue. But I needed to wait for the confirmation this morning. So it's no wonder the scale is just hanging on around 162...At least I've lost a little of that vacation weight!
Just wanted to check in quickly...haven't had much energy for reading up on all my blog friends. Hope to check in with you all later tonight!
I've been just running around and trying to make good choices. I'm not doing as well with water as I should be. Hard to get back to the water when I am just craving a fizzy diet coke...
And it's my TOM...guess crying over laundry and a full dishwasher last night should have been a clue. But I needed to wait for the confirmation this morning. So it's no wonder the scale is just hanging on around 162...At least I've lost a little of that vacation weight!
Just wanted to check in quickly...haven't had much energy for reading up on all my blog friends. Hope to check in with you all later tonight!
Saturday, August 18, 2007
how many points do you think are in a deep fried oreo?
Yes, I actually ate one of those. And it was really, really good! Thankfully, D and I shared them with the kids so I had one and he had 2 and the kids are the rest. But they were really tasty.
We went to the fair on Thursday before heading home on Friday. This is the fair famous for everything being deep fried or on a stick. The hot new food last year was the meatballs on a stick...I think they were deep fried meatballs, too.
We did eat OK for the first part of the day. D bought some cheese curds that we all shared with some pretzels. Then we had apples and clementines. The Egg Board was giving away hard boiled eggs on a stick. Then it was like 2 and we were all STARVING. I just gave up and ate a corn dog. It was sooooo good.
Then we wandered around some more. We wound up getting more hot dogs for dinner for the kiddos...I think the big boys had foot long corn dogs and D got me a shredded pork sandwich. Some more fruit and crackers...and we finished the day (at 9:30 or so) with the deep fried oreos.
I honestly don't think that day at the fair and the crappy eating there was as bad as the drive home. We got donuts for the kids in the morning...mama had 2. For a morning snac, the kids shared some chips and I ate most of a big bag of Smartfood. Love that cheesy popcorn! Lunch was OK...except for the 3 cookies. Then afternoon snack was another donut and some All Bran bites. After we unloaded the car last night. I made bacon and eggs for everyone for a late dinner. I had a piece of bacon and some scrambled eggs. Oh, and yesterday, I drank NO water until after the kids were all in bed. It was all about the diet coke.
So today I went to WI and was up 6.2. REALLY?! Gosh, how did that happen?!?!?!?!
But I have jumped back on the wagon. It's hard in some ways. I just want to eat crappy. Then there is the desire to do the emotional eating thing. But I don't want to go there. It was really good to go to my meeting this morning (well, actually a much later meeting! :P ) and just get back on track. So here it goes...
I'll keep you posted. The kids all start back to school this week and I will have my babies I nanny for at my house a couple days this week and next, too. I am really looking forward to getting back into the routine of life...on all fronts. I need to reclaim this life and not just float along for the ride. Does that make sense to anyone else?
We went to the fair on Thursday before heading home on Friday. This is the fair famous for everything being deep fried or on a stick. The hot new food last year was the meatballs on a stick...I think they were deep fried meatballs, too.
We did eat OK for the first part of the day. D bought some cheese curds that we all shared with some pretzels. Then we had apples and clementines. The Egg Board was giving away hard boiled eggs on a stick. Then it was like 2 and we were all STARVING. I just gave up and ate a corn dog. It was sooooo good.
Then we wandered around some more. We wound up getting more hot dogs for dinner for the kiddos...I think the big boys had foot long corn dogs and D got me a shredded pork sandwich. Some more fruit and crackers...and we finished the day (at 9:30 or so) with the deep fried oreos.
I honestly don't think that day at the fair and the crappy eating there was as bad as the drive home. We got donuts for the kids in the morning...mama had 2. For a morning snac, the kids shared some chips and I ate most of a big bag of Smartfood. Love that cheesy popcorn! Lunch was OK...except for the 3 cookies. Then afternoon snack was another donut and some All Bran bites. After we unloaded the car last night. I made bacon and eggs for everyone for a late dinner. I had a piece of bacon and some scrambled eggs. Oh, and yesterday, I drank NO water until after the kids were all in bed. It was all about the diet coke.
So today I went to WI and was up 6.2. REALLY?! Gosh, how did that happen?!?!?!?!
But I have jumped back on the wagon. It's hard in some ways. I just want to eat crappy. Then there is the desire to do the emotional eating thing. But I don't want to go there. It was really good to go to my meeting this morning (well, actually a much later meeting! :P ) and just get back on track. So here it goes...
I'll keep you posted. The kids all start back to school this week and I will have my babies I nanny for at my house a couple days this week and next, too. I am really looking forward to getting back into the routine of life...on all fronts. I need to reclaim this life and not just float along for the ride. Does that make sense to anyone else?
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
confessions
still on vacation but I feel like I need to do some confessing. There have been some days of eating really well with much constraint. Really not difficult to do. I've had fresh Iowa sweet corn and garden fresh tomatoes to choose from. I have had the world's greatest cottage cheese (not as good low fat as regular, but still good) and yummy nonfat yogurts...then there was the bag of chips and dip. And the soft serve from the Tastee Freeze. And the fish, freshly caught (by my kids) and freshly deep fried (by my dad). And the 14 ounce filet mignon...which I DID share with one of the kids and my husband. But today we went to Culvers...if you are from the midwest you know that means NOTHING low fat or low in calories there. I caved in and had a tenderloin...yummy deep fried pork goodness...and deep fried cheese curds. OH....MY.....GOODNESS!!!
I was soooooooo completely sick after that. Seriously. And seriously needed a ton of water. Tomorrow we are going to the fair. The fair that is famous for everything fried and on a stick. Not looking forward to indulging in that again. It will honestly be interesting in what I DO find to eat. Because I am honestly feeling a little crappy tonight.
But according to my mom's WW scale, I haven't really gained more than a couple of pounds! We'll see about that. We will head home Friday and I really plan to go to my regular meeting on Saturday morning. It's a little sick, but I have never missed a weigh in for the week. Saturday will be my last chance this week. And I KNOW my weight will be up. But then I can lose all the retained water and whatnot by the next Saturday and be back on track. That will happen, right?!
I just wanted to check in with you all while I had a second on my mom's computer. I have really missed my daily accountability with you all. I have not walked like I thought I would because it is so crazy hot and humid here. But I totally need the mental break that you all give me. I'll be back sometime this weekend...hopefully not 10 pounds heavier...it is soooo not worth THAT much weight!
I was soooooooo completely sick after that. Seriously. And seriously needed a ton of water. Tomorrow we are going to the fair. The fair that is famous for everything fried and on a stick. Not looking forward to indulging in that again. It will honestly be interesting in what I DO find to eat. Because I am honestly feeling a little crappy tonight.
But according to my mom's WW scale, I haven't really gained more than a couple of pounds! We'll see about that. We will head home Friday and I really plan to go to my regular meeting on Saturday morning. It's a little sick, but I have never missed a weigh in for the week. Saturday will be my last chance this week. And I KNOW my weight will be up. But then I can lose all the retained water and whatnot by the next Saturday and be back on track. That will happen, right?!
I just wanted to check in with you all while I had a second on my mom's computer. I have really missed my daily accountability with you all. I have not walked like I thought I would because it is so crazy hot and humid here. But I totally need the mental break that you all give me. I'll be back sometime this weekend...hopefully not 10 pounds heavier...it is soooo not worth THAT much weight!
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
midweek check in
I'm not sure if I'll get another chance to post before we leave on Friday morning. It's just crazy around here trying to get ready to go.
I went to WI this morning. I was up .4 from Saturday. I was a little surprised, but I really went just to fulfill my WI for the week. I will most likely come back a week from Friday then go to WI the next day. So that one will probably be up, too. But then I will be back on track to lose my last few pounds before maintenance.
Thanks for your comments lately. Especially you Becky...you SOOOO made me laugh. I will remember the free points from 12-3! It is really rare that I am up at that point, but if I am...I won't sweat those points! LOL And I tend to call my 2 or 3 youngest my "littles"...I have my oldest, the big boys, the little girls and the baby at my house.
This week has been a major NSV for me. I am stressed beyond belief. There is the back to school stuff to be done since we get back 2 days before the kids start back to school. Then there is the packing for the trip. Since I was so sick 2 weeks ago and not a whole lot better last week, my laundry has been out of control. I am desperately trying to catch up. Then there is the money stress. There is never enough in the month of August I swear! And the stress of my hubby's underemployment. That has been the situation for a while, but I am really ready to move from this point. He is seeking out so many leads the past couple of weeks only to have them lead nowhere.
**big sigh**
The good news is that I have NOT turned to that pint of Ben and Jerry's for comfort. I have just continued to plug away at what needs to be done. We did get most of our school supplies yesterday. The new outfit for the first day of school will have to wait for the weekend after we are back.
So now I am off to finish my laundry so we can start the process of packing clothes this morning. I also have to do a couple of batches of pickled beets today. Hopefully that will go quickly and not be a source of MORE stress.
I went to WI this morning. I was up .4 from Saturday. I was a little surprised, but I really went just to fulfill my WI for the week. I will most likely come back a week from Friday then go to WI the next day. So that one will probably be up, too. But then I will be back on track to lose my last few pounds before maintenance.
Thanks for your comments lately. Especially you Becky...you SOOOO made me laugh. I will remember the free points from 12-3! It is really rare that I am up at that point, but if I am...I won't sweat those points! LOL And I tend to call my 2 or 3 youngest my "littles"...I have my oldest, the big boys, the little girls and the baby at my house.
This week has been a major NSV for me. I am stressed beyond belief. There is the back to school stuff to be done since we get back 2 days before the kids start back to school. Then there is the packing for the trip. Since I was so sick 2 weeks ago and not a whole lot better last week, my laundry has been out of control. I am desperately trying to catch up. Then there is the money stress. There is never enough in the month of August I swear! And the stress of my hubby's underemployment. That has been the situation for a while, but I am really ready to move from this point. He is seeking out so many leads the past couple of weeks only to have them lead nowhere.
**big sigh**
The good news is that I have NOT turned to that pint of Ben and Jerry's for comfort. I have just continued to plug away at what needs to be done. We did get most of our school supplies yesterday. The new outfit for the first day of school will have to wait for the weekend after we are back.
So now I am off to finish my laundry so we can start the process of packing clothes this morning. I also have to do a couple of batches of pickled beets today. Hopefully that will go quickly and not be a source of MORE stress.
Tuesday, August 7, 2007
yesterday or today?
question...does the skinny cow I ate at 12:45 this morning go on my food log for yesterday or for today? I can't believe I was up that late. It was a yarn thing...I had a tangled skein so I stayed up, obsessed, until I had a nice and neat ball. It only took me about 4 hours.
Then I rewarded myself with ice cream...
ugh...back to my laundry...and getting the kiddos ready for school...and getting ready to go see family in Iowa this weekend...maybe a little more ice cream?! LOL
You all will be glad to know that I have been trying to limit myself to one extra child over at a time. No more days or having 9 or 10 kids here. Just a reasonable 6 or 7! :D
Then I rewarded myself with ice cream...
ugh...back to my laundry...and getting the kiddos ready for school...and getting ready to go see family in Iowa this weekend...maybe a little more ice cream?! LOL
You all will be glad to know that I have been trying to limit myself to one extra child over at a time. No more days or having 9 or 10 kids here. Just a reasonable 6 or 7! :D
Saturday, August 4, 2007
weigh in and another loss
I have finally lost all the weight from that big gain a couple of weeks ago. I actually lost 3.2 this week. It was one of those weeks when I didn't really feel like I "deserved" to lose, if you know what I mean. I didn't really make poor choices, but I ate all my daily points each day. And I only have like 4 flex points left.
But I did track everything. Like Aleena and her friend T made a cake this week...I ate a few bites here and there...and a whole piece one night. I just tracked it all. Last Saturday night I ordered pizza for me and the kiddos. D was working and I had been making pickles all day. I CHOWED down 3 pieces of the stuff. I was STARVING and I just ate and ate. I also ate some of their cinna-bread stuff that I had ordered with the pizza. But I tracked it all. So maybe that is really the key.
I have those things written down so I feel accountable for them, but I also have to compensate my week for them? I'm really not sure.
So now that I am down into the 150's again, I need to lose point 24 from my day. I am a little nervous about that! I honestlly don't know how those of you who only eat 21 or 22 points a day do it. I really feel best on about 28 a day. So I will see how it goes dropping down to 23 dailies. And I haven't really had any extra exercise for 2 weeks now. I have been soooooo sick. I have actually taken a nap most every day for the past 2 weeks. And if you know me, you know that unless I am pregnant I tend to go all day long barely sitting down, let alone lying down! And no, I'm really sure I'm not preggers, I've just been really sick.
That is the other thing that was surprising about my loss this week. We tend to think that we have to exercise to lose weight. I think I need to exercise to keep from losing my mind and my patience with my kids, not to have a good loss. Good thing...becuase I just soooo do not need another thing to feel guilty that I am not getting done on a daily basis.
I literally have a laundry pile that is now taller than all my children. So I know what I am doing this weekend. We are getting ready to go out of town for a week or so, and I really need to conquer that pile. Plus there is all the back to school stuff that needs to be dealt with. It really is stressing me out. Last night I wanted to drown my stress in a pint of ice cream. Instead I talked to my hubby about it. Who knew that could be more satisfying and helpful?!?! I was AGHAST I tell you!
Happy weekend to you all!
But I did track everything. Like Aleena and her friend T made a cake this week...I ate a few bites here and there...and a whole piece one night. I just tracked it all. Last Saturday night I ordered pizza for me and the kiddos. D was working and I had been making pickles all day. I CHOWED down 3 pieces of the stuff. I was STARVING and I just ate and ate. I also ate some of their cinna-bread stuff that I had ordered with the pizza. But I tracked it all. So maybe that is really the key.
I have those things written down so I feel accountable for them, but I also have to compensate my week for them? I'm really not sure.
So now that I am down into the 150's again, I need to lose point 24 from my day. I am a little nervous about that! I honestlly don't know how those of you who only eat 21 or 22 points a day do it. I really feel best on about 28 a day. So I will see how it goes dropping down to 23 dailies. And I haven't really had any extra exercise for 2 weeks now. I have been soooooo sick. I have actually taken a nap most every day for the past 2 weeks. And if you know me, you know that unless I am pregnant I tend to go all day long barely sitting down, let alone lying down! And no, I'm really sure I'm not preggers, I've just been really sick.
That is the other thing that was surprising about my loss this week. We tend to think that we have to exercise to lose weight. I think I need to exercise to keep from losing my mind and my patience with my kids, not to have a good loss. Good thing...becuase I just soooo do not need another thing to feel guilty that I am not getting done on a daily basis.
I literally have a laundry pile that is now taller than all my children. So I know what I am doing this weekend. We are getting ready to go out of town for a week or so, and I really need to conquer that pile. Plus there is all the back to school stuff that needs to be dealt with. It really is stressing me out. Last night I wanted to drown my stress in a pint of ice cream. Instead I talked to my hubby about it. Who knew that could be more satisfying and helpful?!?! I was AGHAST I tell you!
Happy weekend to you all!
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